My Tom Hanks Moment...

The next story happened a few years ago, but I have to share it with you, cuz... well... it's pretty cool. Just read!

So... a few years ago, I went to visit my aunt and uncle in Spain. I stayed there for a little bit and then we all flew back to Amsterdam together.
On departure day, I had a Tom Hanks moment... This is the story I wrote:
Remember 'Sleepless In Seattle'??? When Meg Ryan was getting off the plane in Seattle, while Tom was dropping off that other woman... When he laid eyes on Meg for the first time, he was just standing there in amazement... The whole world around him stopped for a moment, no people, no sounds, no nothing... Just her... and something just 'clicked'...

Well, I had that too, that 'click'... With a guy I saw at Malaga Airport in Spain...
I saw him from miles away walking in my direction... Gorgeous black man, nicely dressed, bouncy dreads, good posture... Looking at me... smiling...
I hadn't seen anything that yummy in a LONG time, so my eyes were drawn to him from a distance and they stayed focused until he approached me.
And when he was just a few steps away, I recognized him. He's a Dutch international soccer player, at that time playing for Madrid.

(side note: I'm not at all a big soccer fan, but I remember this guy, cuz his career started at a very young age, and there was a lot of hype around it... He also did an ad for an organization against racism... The posters of him dressed in a white suit were all over Amsterdam at that time, and I remember every time I saw one of these posters, I felt all warm inside. Gorgeous gorgeous man....)

Later on I passed him on my way to the plane, he smiled and said 'hi'... Then on the plane, he passed me again, and again we smiled at each other... I even looked around to see where he was going to be seated, and he looked around, back at me again too...
I knew I was blushing, and I'm sure the whole plane could feel my heartbeat... I remember accidentally saying to myself "God, I'm staring!" out loud, and my uncle asked me: "What was that?" and I was like: "Ehmmm... nothing..."

I spent 2hrs and 45mins thinking of a way to give him my telephone number...
But I was too shy...
I thought I would write my name and number down on a piece of paper and just slip it to him at some point, but I was seated in between my aunt and uncle, and I didn't really have any privacy... I thought if they'd see what I was doing, they'd think I'm an idiot. So I guess I'd rather seem like a sane person to them, (a sane single-for-the-rest-of-my-life person, I should say) than have a shot at... something.

But then again, guys like this are never single, are they? He's probably got a gorgeous trophy wife and a bunch of kids stacked away somewhere...

So anyway, almost 3 hours later, when we got to Amsterdam airport I saw him again at the baggage claim... More glances and smiles... And on my way out, I gave him my prettiest smile and said "bye" in kind of a disappointed tone... and that was it...

And now I feel like such an idiot! Why did I chicken out? I keep thinking about it... I keep thinking about what I could have done... What I should have done... I keep wondering if maybe I imagined the whole thing, or if he was really staring at me too... He really was, wasn't he?
And I haven't been able to let it go... To tell you the truth, I haven't slept in two days! I feel like a lovesick teenager... Or better yet; a damn fool!

Of course you exchange glances with strangers more than once in a life time... But this was more than a glance... There were multiple glances!
And I just kinda felt that "something"... Really! I'm not kidding...

Anyway, since then I found out that he is in fact single... Yeaaa! And I know he's gonna be in Amsterdam for a little while longer playing at some soccer tournament next weekend... (which, of course, I'll be attending...)
So far I've also found out that I know 4 people that have some kind of connection with him or with people that know him, so I put them on the case to get me his number, or give him my number...
I figured; what if he felt the 'click' too... I'm just a normal person (well... normal?)... He doesn't know a thing about me... So what if I've been on his mind too? It's easier for me to track him down, than the other way around... So I gotta try it...

A friend of mine told me I was obsessed with the whole thing and I should just let it go... She said; "If it comes back to you, it's yours..." yeayeayea, I heard that before... (So far, only the shitty ones have come back...)
Another friend of mine told me to stay on the case... He said; "What if next time he's on the plane and some girl's smiling at him that's not too shy to give him her number... You go for yours girl!"

And seriously, sometimes you just gotta help faith a little... Right?

~ End of Part One ~

Part two will be posted in a few days... Stay Tuned!

But in the meantime... Tell me; What would YOU do in a situation like that? Would you have approached the other person? And what would you have said??? Let me know, I'm curious...

In Silence (...as perfect as you...)

My eyes follow you...
as you move across the room...
You look at me...
And notice me...
looking at you...
looking at me...

And I smile...
cuz you're smiling at me...

You have the cutest dimples...
did you know that?

You leave the room...
and look behind you
one more time...

Yes...
I'm still looking...

You're the type of guy that deserves an audience...

You're amazing...
the way your body moves...
your posture...
your smile...
Where are you going?
Please come back soon!

Oh...
there you are...
back already...
That wasn't too long...
considering I've waited for you for 30+ years...
but if this is really you...
then you've definitely been worth it...

You're the type of guy that I'd wait another 30+ years for...
Well, maybe not that long...

You're still smiling...
There are those dimples again...
You're so cute.

You sit down next to me...
So here we are...
sitting...
in silence...
next to each other...
Finally...

So close...
I could touch you if I wanted to...
I want to...
But I'm shy...
So I just smile...

You use your fingertips
to brush the hair from my face...
You take in every curl...
and you smile in admiration...

You move forward...
and your lips are only inches away from mine...
I want to kiss you so bad...
but I don't wanna rush this...

You're the type of guy that deserves my patience...

So we're just sitting here...
in silence...
And you're staring at me...
I can feel that I'm blushing...
Wondering what you're looking at...

You're moving closer...
Wait.
Are you gonna kiss me?
Shivers...
all over my body...

Yes!
You are...
kissing me...

Your lips...
so soft...
on mine...

Hmmm....

This is so unreal...
And so nice...
Don't ever take those lips off mine...
please...
Let's just stay like this...
forever...

Like Siamese twins...
Joined by the lips...
So I never have to leave you...
And I can stare into those big brown eyes
for the rest of my life...

Hmmm...

I can feel your breath on me...
It's warm...
like your tongue...
twirling around mine...
Slowly...
inside my mouth...

You're the type of guy that can make me lose my consciousness...
...in a heartbeat...

I can feel my heart beat...
wow...
We're kissing...
We're kissing!
Who would have thought...
that we'd be kissing?

Our lips unlock...
Wait!
Don't go...
I wasn't done kissing you yet...
Come back!
I have plans for me and you...

You're the type of guy that deserves a future...

You look at me...
and smile...
contently...

Still in silence...
Are you thinking things too?
Are you wondering what I look like naked?
Cuz I sure am wondering what you look like naked right now...
I'm blushing again...
Cuz I don't want to think that...

But you're the type of guy that makes me think things I shouldn't be thinking...

I can't help myself...
You just seem so perfect...
and all I can do is hope...
and wish...
and pray...
...in silence...

that I'm the type of girl that deserves a type of guy ...as perfect you.


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(I wrote this for my choreographer-crush... He went abroad to tour with some big shot celebs and I haven't seen him in years.)

What Really Happened Between My Thighs...

Many of you have asked the question if my last blog "Between My Thighs" really happened. Yes my friends, it did.
So in case you were wondering... Yes. Somebody has actually been in The Thigh Area this last decade...
But he eventually got kicked out again too.

I'll tell you the story... This is what really happened:

I met D years ago on the internet. We became good friends, but we both never hinted towards anything romantic... I actually turned him down the first few times he asked me out... But when I finally gave in ("Okaaaay I'll go out with you... Just please stop with the begging already..."), it turned out we were quite the match!

We went out on a few dates and I definitely felt an unexplainable 'click' between us...
It was nice! He was nice!
Like me, he had a crazy sense of humor, so we shared a lot of laughs... And I was happy to realize that there were still some "nice guys" left after all, and I was even more blown away when he told me that he had fallen in love with me the moment we met.

I believed him.

What I didn't know back then, is that men don't fall in love at first sight. They're simply not emotional enough...
So ladies, if a guy tells you on the first few dates that he's in love with you, this means that:
a.) he's just buttering you up for sex
b.) he doesn't know what love is (he probably thinks it's a disease you just catch)
c.) he's gay

Three very valid reasons to hightail out of there...

But all of this happened many players ago, so I had no idea he was bullshitting me at the time... Therefore, I plea temporary insanity. Or temporary gullibility... Call it what you want. I just didn't know better (yet).

So I believed him.

But along the way, things didn't quite add up... My female intuition alarm bells were going off, working overtime, in the pit of my stomach, and I started testing him a little bit.

I asked him some of the same questions I had already asked on the first few dates, but his stories were inconsistent. And we all know; lies are harder to remember than the truth... Hmmm... people's exhibit A.

And you should know, I'm not one to chase after a guy... So I let him initiate all contact... But I noticed that he always called me during office hours, or from his car on his way home...
So I tested him some more... And when I would call or send him a text message late at night, his phone would be switched off.
Maybe it's not any hard evidence you'll win a case with in court, but it sure is suspicious...

After a few weeks of dating (and my undercover investigative work), I called him once, during the day, and I got his voicemail for a change... I had never heard the message before, so I was kinda curious what it said.... Imagine my surprise, when it said that "D and Nathalie couldn't come to the phone right now"....

I panicked. I froze. And I hung up to phone...

"...D and Nathalie..."? WHO THE F*CK is Nathalie??!

And of course, not a minute later my phone rang...
It said "D" on my display, so I answered, still kinda in shock, but ready to confront him and get some answers. I said; "Hello?" but in a what-the-f*ck-do-you-want kinda way.

And sure enough.... It wasn't D on the phone calling me back...
It was Nathalie.

"Yes hello, did you just call this number?" she asked.

"Ehm... See... what had happened wassss... ehm... yea... ehmmm.... I did.... But ehm... I don't even know a D, nor a Nathalie, so ehhhh, I musta had the wrong number! Mbye!"
And I hung up.

Wow.
That was weird.

In hindsight I figured that Nathalie had probably seen my name come up on D's display too, so of course I didn't dial the wrong number... But she was probably as much in shock as I was, and couldn't get a word in between my rambling...

So that was it. All the proof I needed. The fairytale was over.
Now I know I can always rely on my gut feeling!
And more proof also... that it IS really hard to find a "nice guy" nowadays...

But me and D were over.
Finished.
Finito.
Kaputo.
No more Between-My-Thighs-Exploring for him!

I never told him I found out... I figure; why crush the one thing a man cares about?
(And in case you're wondering; I'm not talking about his HEART, I'm talking about his EGO!)

I just told him he wasn't right for me. Which is true, cuz I don't do liars...
He never asked me any questions, so he probably knew that that was secret code for: "I am on to you, you lying summavab*tch!"

And I let Nathalie handle the rest...

So here are a couple of tips for all the players out there:
1. Never underestimate the power of female intuition. It is a force that is greater than you.
2. If you're gonna lie, make sure you remember what you lied about, you moron!
But let me tell you now: It may not be today or tomorrow, or next week or next month, but a lie ALWAYS comes out.

And here's a tip for all the players trying to play me:
1. Don't let the blond locks fool you! If you're underestimating my intelligence, you're insulting me.
I have yet to meet a man that can outsmart me in the player department.
What can I say? Nothing gets passed Miss Vicstar.

It's too bad though, cuz D was really special to me there for a minute...
I really liked him and we could have been friends, if he hadn't lied to me... But I don't want friends that lie. That's just disrespectful. And I'm allergic to disrespect. That, and bullshit.

So I never talked to him again.

But the flowers he sent me the next Valentine's Day were a nice touch, though.

They really brightened up my trashcan.


Vicky

Between My Thighs

Do you remember the day we met?
What we talked about, and all the fun we had?

Everything you said made me blush and smile
and I swear when you kissed me I lost conciousness for a while...

Do you remember how you got lost in my eyes?
And how I found you again... between my thighs?

I remember every spot you kissed, every minute, every second...
And I don't wanna brag on here, but what we did our first time together... was definitely a record...

And God, do I remember you made me feel like no man had ever done...
Like I was made for you and you were made for me... Like I was the only one...


But...
I'm not.


And forgive me,
But honestly;

I just wanna scream at you and bang your head into a wall...
For making me blush, smile, loose my conciousness, and above all for making me fall...

And I really really wanna hate you now...
But I can't hate someone that I still feel somehow...

We both got in eachothers hearts, you felt it too, I knew it
But a man only gets one chance with me, and I'm sorry to say; you blew it.

The good thing about it, even though I don't know when...
One day I'll meet a better man and quite possibly, I'll fall again.

And the bad thing about it, the reality is that...
One day you'll bang your head into that wall yourself, when you realise what you could have had.

You'll remember that night, you'll blush, you'll smile, and I know that you will miss it...
But don't you worry about me babe; I'm pretty sure that better man will know just as well where to kiss it......


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If You Were My Man

Would you move heaven and earth to try to be mine
Would you make me giggle and laugh all of the time
Would you lift me up and twirl me around
Would you kiss my forehead when you put me back down

Would you take me to dinner, a movie, a club
Would you spoil me with kisses and a backrub
Would you open up doors and pull up my chair
Would you compliment me on how I'm wearing my hair

Would you fix me a meal and then feed it to me
Would you be all of the things that you tell me you'll be
Would you sing me a song when we're in the shower
Wash my hair and stay there for at least an hour

Would you bubble my bath and pour me champagne
Would you hold the umbrella when we walk through the rain
Would you hear my voice trembling when I feel sad
Would you surprise me on Sundays with breakfast in bed

Would you not try to blame me when you slip a fart
Would you be really careful when I give you my heart
Would you write me letters, emails, cards 'just because'
Would you not sweat it so much when I'm making a fuss

Would you always be honest and never lie
Even when it's not easy, would you at least try
Would you call me sometimes just to hear my voice
Make me feel special; your number one choice

Would you still smell my perfume when I'm miles away
Would you be longing to kiss me every second of the day
Would you watch b-ball with me and root for my team
Would you shut up for an hour so I can watch Crime Scene

When I'm sick would you make soup and nurse me back to health
Would you have dinner with mom and not embarrass yourself
When you hang with your boys and you come home to me
Would you tell me there's no place that you'd rather be

When it's that time of the month, will you cut me some slack
Let me yell at you for a little while till I take it all back
If I had a bad day would you hold me real tight
Kiss to make it all better and tell me things be all right

Would you buy me flowers sometimes and remember our song
Would you tell me you're sorry and admit when you're wrong
Would you not walk away in the middle of a fight
Would we have make up sex afterwards all through the night

Would you make love to me daily, and at least twice
Would your passion and intensity water my eyes
Would you tell me you love me every day of the week
Would you be my homie, my best friend, my lover, my freak

Would you never keep me guessing, or wondering why
Would you assure me you love me till the day that I die
Would you give me some children after you make me your wife
Would you share your visions, your dreams, your hopes, your whole life

And if I'm asking too much here, would you let me know
So I can adjust what I wish for, without letting you go

All I want is for you to love me best as you can
Cuz I would do exactly the same... if you were my man



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Love Makes No Sense

I've been lied to
Yelled at
Pushed around
Called "fat"

Cheated on
Abused
Slapped in the face
and used

My heart got broken
even crushed
They ignored my love
Betrayed my trust

And where do these guys even find the nerve
To make me go through this pain that I don't deserve

But despite the heartaches, the tears, and all mentioned above
I must be a damn fool, but I still believe in love...


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